I feel this strange bitterness building in me. I'm sad and I'm not cuz I don't want to allow myself to be that way. I wish someone would take my hand and lead me to the stairs, hand me a microphone with a smile, motion for me to go up the stairs onto the stage and start the music. I just need a start and my God will carry me through the songs. I just want to sing and I want someone to want me to sing.
I don't think I'll get called back for Beauty & the Beast cuz Jesse got a call this morning @ 9:30am and I haven't heard anything. I am depressed. and there's a stupid part of me that is still hopeful which will just get me more depressed later. Oh well...
Itz like a ghost-town here on Xanga... I think I just saw a tumbleweed roll by... In case anyone is still using Xanga, I shall update.
Work has been alright... Home has been pretty good... I'm just super alone alot. and sometimes I really enjoy it in an emo way. I really want/need to work on my music more. I wanna get some songs together and eventually a demo to try and get signed or something...
Girls Nite In @ Estrogen Land a.k.a. Me and April's Apt is Friday Aug. 10th @ 7:30pm
Friday Aug. 17th @ 7pm I'm having any HSM connoisseurs that want to come over to watch the premier of High School Musical 2! ^^
Then Aug. 19th and 20th are auditions for Beauty and the Beast at the Arts Center of Cannon County. I want to play Belle sooooooo bad! "I want it more than I can tell..."-(a line Belle sings- if you don't know what I'm talking about, you're pretty lame lol)
I've been reading Gackt's autobiography and he is such an interesting, intelligent, and talented guy!
Ayu is still the queen of Jpop ^^
Hyde is awesome and talented and so funny!
My love for Hikaru Utada and her amazing music has been rekindled!
Arashi is the greatest Japanese boyband ever! ^^
Lee Hom Wang is the coolest Taiwanese musician ever!
